I love to read. 

A little background about me. Up until 10 years ago the only thing I would read was the newspaper (sports page) or some other sports related magazine. I would not buy books. I would purchase the book on CD and listen to it in my car as I was driving. No reading for me. Just the idiot box (TV) or radio in my car. 

I don’t know when I changed or what happened. Out of the blue I started to read. I now think I am like Forrest Gump when he began to run. He just kept running for no reason. Only difference is I have a reason, I like to learn new things. I enjoy visualizing and implementing what I read. At my previous job they had a sign that said, “ the only thing constant is change.” Maybe that is why I like to read. I don’t want to be left behind. I want to continue to stretch my brain.  Maybe, it is because I didn’t finish my degree and I feel inadequate. I have to read to continue my development. That is part of it but the real answer is, I just like to read. 

I have posted some of my favorite books on the side of my blog. I read almost 3 books a week and I will continue to update my favorites as I finish more. 

I am currently reading Jon Gordon’s, “The No Complaining Rule” I love it. 

What are some of your favorite books? Let me know and maybe I will give them a read.

November 9, 1989. I remember the date well. I lived in Nurnberg Germany and that was the day the “Wall” came down in Germany. The excitement was everywhere. The West Germans were so welcoming to the East Germans. They were being reunited with relatives that they could no longer visit or communicate with. The electricity in the air was amazing. There was fireworks, people singing, celebrating but mostly, loving one another.

 People were inviting people they didn’t even know that escaped the wall, to stay with them at their homes. Our military base opened up rooms, gym and other places for them to rest. Their little cars were one of the greatest sites to see.

Now, I am a Christ follower and I wonder if that is how it is in heaven when someone gives their life to Christ. You are free. No longer living in bondage. You have escaped that wall that has kept you a prisoner. So celebrate like the Germans did back on that special day in 1989.

A few weeks ago our Campus Pastor, Chris, asked the attenders if they had been attending the campus for over a year and Didn’t know anyone to raise their hands. I was stunned at how many hands were raised. I saw a guy who raised his hand and I felt like I should talk to him. When the experience was over I tried to get to him but he jetted out of the room before I could reach him. Then I thought okay, no wonder you aren’t getting connected, you aren’t trying to get connected. During the message I felt like we were failing reaching out, then when the guy ran out, my thoughts changed.

I really believe it is a two-way street for people to connect. It can’t be just one person trying to connect, it needs to be intentional on both sides. I am sure there are some legitimate reasons some may not want to talk to anyone or get to know anyone at church. They may just want to blend in. They could be shy. They may have tried in the past to get connected and it didn’t work out.

One thing I do know is people leave the church if they don’t connect with someone within their first six months of attending the church.
I pray you take a step toward the church and I pray the church also takes a step towards you too.

Maurine and I celebrated our 17^th anniversary a few weeks ago.  I wonder why it takes an anniversary for me to tell Maurine how much I love her. I try to think about my life without her and I can’t. I wish I could say I am the perfect husband, but I am not, I have a lot to learn.  She has put up with so much from me over the years. I am not the best communicator with Maurine. I would really appreciate your prayers to help me be better in this area. Another weakness is family time. In my world, if we are in the same room and even if we don’t say a word, I consider it family time; it took me a while to figure out  that isn’t her world.  I still forget that my world isn’t everyone else’s world. Yeah it is all about me. 

 In the morning she feeds the kids, gets them ready for school, gets ready herself, works out, reads the Bible and the list could go on and on. I on the other hand take care of me and that is tough enough.  I am so fortunate and don’t even realize it.  I actually am spoiled. 

God placed Maurine in my life and I am so grateful.  Our journey over the years has been pretty amazing. Only God could write this story and I am fortunate enough to have a part in her life. I thank God for the love of my life, Maurine.

Last year, I met a man at work who I will refer to as John(not his real name).  John has had a really rough time the past few years. John is homeless and lives out of his car at a truck stop in Oklahoma City.  At one time, John had a good life.  Now he sleeps in his car, takes a shower at the truck stop, then gets dressed and goes to work. John is in retail sales.  If you saw him you would never know he is homeless.  He wears a 3 piece suit to work and he is by far the best dressed homeless man I have ever seen! 

About 2 months ago his car broke down.  The only use the car is to him now is a place to sleep.  He doesn’t have any way of getting to  work now, so he can’t afford to get his car fixed or to be able to save to afford a new one.  The crazy thing is his boss still wants him to come back to work – even after not working for 2 months.  I have been torn up about what I need to  do.  I have even thought about giving him my car, but then what would that mean for me and my family.

A few months ago, I found John a place to live for free so that he could get his car fixed, he refused.  The reason he told me he refused is because of his past, he is a convicted sex offender.  John told me the story when I first met him a year ago and he says he was falsely convicted.  At times I have wondered if he is being truthful with me but for some reason my heart pours out to him.  It hurts me every time I talk to him.   I do not want to enable him, I want him to do things on his own, but as Christians I know that we are called to help each other and to show love to each other. The help I have offered he won’t accept, probably because of his past he is afraid he will get beaten up in a homeless shelter.

All I know is John is gripped by fear. He is paralyzed from his past and can’t or won’t do anything to help himself.  He has a story, just as everyone does.  He struggles with why would God allow all of these things to happen to him.  He did finally agree to counseling this week and I am very excited about that.  But for now, I am still trying to help figure out John’s transportation situation and being able to get him back to work and eventually being able to find him a place to live.  Thoughts and prayers are appreciated.

 I was watching TV this morning and flipping through the channels.  I usually watch Joyce Meyer, but there was a commercial on when I turned it there.  Of course I couldn’t watch a commercial, so I changed it to James Robison’s Life Reach today.  Beth Moore was speaking and she was doing a great job as usual, but that isn’t what shook me. When she was finished speaking, James starting talking about some children in a foreign country. He spoke of these kids who didn’t have shoes and how they were getting bacterial infections from the cuts in their feet. Some of the children are dying.  As I was watching it,  my 8 year old said “what is wrong with that girl”? I had to explain she didn’t have shoes and she might get sick without them. Then he asked if the adults had shoes and I had to say “no.”  Then in my mind came the why don’t you help them.  Of course the enemy started telling me who do you think you are and you are only one, so it really doesn’t matter if you help them or not.  I had  to capture my thoughts because at first I was believing them.

 I then decided that I do need to do something about it. I am going to do what I do best and that is tell as many people as I can, one person at a time.  The shoes cost $3.60 a pair, less than a cup of coffee at some places!   

 Shoes aren’t a luxury for these children, they are a necessity. A pair of shoes could literally save a life. I am attaching a website where you can purchase if you feel called.  My prayer is that together we can make a difference in these children’s lives.

 http://www.lifetoday.org/site/PageServer

 While driving to work this morning, I heard a song and the lyrics said we are just a phone call from being on our knees.  How true is that? I have a friend at work, who last week got a phone call and was told his dad had a massive heart attack. Today in the office, another co-worker received a call and was told her  dad was being transported to the hospital because of heart problems.

 One phone call and  we are on our knees praying to God.  Our life is going normal then bam we receive a call that could change our lives. This made me start thinking about my life.  

 I always say I am preparing for tomorrow, but is it what God wants?  Do you prepare for tomorrow or live for today? When I read His word it tells me to do both.  Where there is no vision the people perish.  The Lord’s prayer says my daily bread not tomorrow’s bread. There are many more verses but those are ones that just popped in my head.

 I have been observing my friends during this time leaning on God.  I really believe I should live for TODAY when it comes to sharing my love for Jesus Christ. I really don’t know if there will be a tomorrow. What about my kids? I disciple others but do I disciple them?  I know this is wrong but I always say I will really dive in to them later after I get through with others. My family is getting leftovers, how sad! This is something I have to/will correct. I would also like it if you would hold me accountable.

 So God showed me what I need to change today. What is it that you need to change just in case you received that phone call?